Jun 28, 2005

Borderline between What and What?

am watching "girl, interrupted (1999)" on vcd.
have watched it for many many times since 1999.
but still don't know what the f...... is borderline personality disorder.
if there's a line there, who drew the line, the borderline? who drew the line and for what? who set the rules?
sold the novel, girl interrupted to xiao-wen.
but still have the vcd with me.

it made me laugh though.
a comedy (to me).
oh, the scene at the ice cream parlor was hilarious, the best ever!
At an ice cream parlor, "No, it's just called PEPPER MINT."“…Pepper mint d…k, pepper mint c…t.”"Hahahaha!"
“Can I have…,...rainbow no chocolate…,with cherries…,and…..” “Nuts?” “Hahahahaha!”

“A lot of people go there, even writers, like you.”
“Borderline what? Borderline between what and what?”
“Call me a cab. Okay. You’re a cab.”
“Borderline…….That’s me.” “That’s everybody.”

I see part of me in Lisa, and part of me in Susana....

“I’m not really dead.”
“I know.”
“I’m gonna miss you susuki.”
“No, you’re not. You’re gonna get out of here and come to see me. Okay?”
That's pretty......touching.

For Bosses

"Want a day off work?

So you want a day off.
Let's take a look at what you are asking for.
There are 365 days per year available for work.
There are 52 weeks per year in which you already have 2 days off per week, leaving 261 days available for work.
Since you spend 16 hours each day away fron work, you have used up 170 days, leaving only 91 days available.
You spend 30 minutes each day on coffee break which counts for 23 days each year, leaving only 68 days available.
With a 1 hour lunch each day, you used up another 46 days, leaving only 22 days available for work.
You normally spend 2 days per year on sick leave.
This leaves you only 20 days per year available for work.
We are off 5 holidays per year, so your available working time is down to 15 days.
We generously give 14 days vacation per year which leaves only 1 day available for work and I'll be darned if you are going to take that day off!"

Jun 27, 2005

A Big Shout out to Philadelphia A.

A big shout out to Philadelphia A
Thank you so much for sending me Maxwell’s songs.
Yes. I’m into Neo-Soul.
Male singers such as Maxwell and D’Angelo (especially, “Nothing Even Matters” by Lauryn Hill feat. D’Angelo)
Female singers: India.Arie (each and every song in her first album/cd) and Angie Stone
Thank you again, brotha. Muah!

Jun 26, 2005

Single? Yes. But Ever Involved with Someone?

All right, I know many people have been/are curious about my love life, boyfriend-girl-friend that kind of thing. I’m 100% single, not involved with anyone right now. I did have some official and “unofficial”/"secret" affairs, relationships, or whatsoever they’re called IN THE PAST. It's ah.....highly confidential. But…I wanna disclose two pics of “me and one of my exes” below. Yeah, a gorilla and me. Haha! Didn’t we look like we’re a couple?!

Gorilla and Yu-Hua Posted by Hello

Pei-Wen Gorilla and Yu-Hua Posted by Hello

Believe it or not

we (all of us) come here(the world) to learn, to learn something, before we leave (the world). what i believe is (whether you believe it or not), if we meet some peple who are meaningful, important to us in this lifetime, we met them in our past life, too, and we'll meet them again in our next lifetime. :) [the above words are to my friends, to myself, to everyone i care, to everyoe who cares me....]

[below, to my self]
always keep a child's heart deep inside of you, yu-hua

always keep a simple, pure love inside of you and spread it out

love can change the world.

simple, pure love.

(to me, the simplest is the deepest.)

Me Talk Pretty

Three men, an American, an Arab, and a Chinese man are in a 7-eleven when a robber storms in.
The robber points his gun at the American and says, If you think of a sentence with pink, green and yellow in it, I won't kill you.
The American, mumbles something and gives up so the robber shoots him.
The Arab doesn't know what to say and also gets shot.
The robber then looks at the Chinese man who frantically says, "My phone go 'green, green', I 'pink' it up, and I say, 'yellow, yellow'" .

Birthday Blessings

Thank you (my sister, Xin-Zhu K., Tai-Nan J., Kansas S. and Xiao-wen, Philadelphia A and Tai-Bei A.) very much for your blessings upon my birthday!

Jun 25, 2005

I'm Here to...

New York V. (a young Egyptian psychic) stopped me on my way to Times Square on Dec. 31, 2004. and said, "you're different from other people". She said she usually didn't stop people like that. Alright, it's me who (unintentionally/naturally/unconsciously) stopped her, so that she felt like stopping me and saying something to me/reading for me. I didn't see her as a person, physically. I saw her as a mirror to reflect me. A stranger who could see through me, felt me, and reflect me through her words/reading. I saw a lot of tears in her eyes. I was wondering at that moment, "I cried, but why you, too?" Later on I realized the tears in her eyes were my tears. Like I said, a mirror reflecting myself. I believe her. I'm different from other people. But I believe her mother, New York N., also a psychic, partly. Her mother at her shop said, "you're here to succeed." Now, 1 day before my birthday, I'd like to say, "I'm here to CONTRIBUTE" to New York "N. New York N., I'm here (in the world, in the cosmos) not to succeed, but to contribute." I believe I'm more than this; I'm more than what I am right now. I'm here to contribute, to give love, not to succeed for myself. I'm encaged now. But I believe I'll be more than what I am now. I'm here to contribute myself, not to succeed for myself. I truly believe that.

Happy Birthday to lyh!

Happy birthday to lyh..."0626"!
It's 4:08 p.m. on June 25 here in Taiwan (where I'm currently staying).
It's 4:08 a.m. on June 25 in New York (my favorite city, where New York N. and New York V., the two Egyptian psychics [mother and daughter] live) and New Jersey (where my aunt and her family live in).
It's 3:08 a.m. on June 25 in Kansas (where Kansas S., Kansas C. and Kansas G. [G. is C.'s mother] and many other friends in Kansas live)
I'm going to SPIRITUALLY sttend Kansas S.' belated birthday gathering on June 25 from 8:00 p.m. to June 26 12:00 a.m. That's Kansas time. It'll be on June 26 from 9:00 a.m. to 1:00 p.m. here in Taiwan. She invited me. I'll be there, SPIRITUALLY. Kansas S., trust me, I'll be there; from 9:00 a.m. to 1:00 p.m. on June 26, my HEART, my MIND, my SPIRIT is there to celebrate your birthday and mine.
We have a life long project. And that'll definately go on and on and on...

Jun 24, 2005

Girls, Read it, and FIRE BACK!!!

"The Rules, according to men
The Guys' Rules

At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down. Finally, the guys' side of the story. (I must admit, it's pretty good.)

We always hear?? the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. Please note... these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. 1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail. 1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after7 days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done.Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1 Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to -- expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine...Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or monster trucks.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round is a shape.

1. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; but did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping."

Jun 21, 2005

A Bunch of Old......

First, one comment from Kansas S.
"What a beautiful photo. I find it hard to believe that this man is 91 years old. He looks great. Is he your fraternal or your maternal grandfather?

Youthfulness must run in your veins, Yu-Hua. You are lucky to have great skin and shape, not to mention vigor/energy! You take care of yourself, inside and out, and it shows.

My best to you...

Kansas S."

Then, my e-mail reply to her:

"Oh, yes, he's my father's father. People say I look like my grandpa. A lot more people say my fahter and I look a like. My grandpa needs a girlfriend. Maybe I can introduce you to him?! Haha! Just kidding! He sits upright. He walks upright. And ....Haha...(sorry, I'm laughing) and my two dogs, Wawa is 9 years old; Laifu/Rifle is 13 years old, so we're a bunch of old people...uh, no, a bunch of old living beings in our family! :)"

Kansas S. and Tainan S.

It’s already early in the morning on June 21 here in Taiwan. But It’s still in the afternoon on June 20 in Kansas, U.S.A. HAPPY HAPPY birthday to Kansas S. I know she is busy working right now at this moment. “Girl, today is your day, DON’T WORK TOO HARD!” She’s always AWESOME! I still remember one day I secretly wrote a bunch of “AWESOME” on each balloon stick on her door and the wall in the hallway sent by the floormates for her. No one saw I did it. But, surprisingly, at the very moment she noticed those “AWESOME”, “AWESOME”, “AWESOME” on the balloons, she knew it’s me who did it. We happened to encounter each other in the ladies’ room. She asked me if I wrote them. Of course I said no. and of course she knew I lied. Ha! But too bad, she quitted saying “AWESOME” all the time soon after that. She knew I had fun counting how many times I heard her saying “AWESOME”. That was one of my “pastimes” at that time. Ouch! ~>___<~

I recently started e-mailing back and forth with/to Tainan S. again. She (my classmate in Tainan) used to be Taibei (Taipei) S. before she went to school, moved to, got married and gave birth to a baby girl in Tainan. When’s the last time we met each other? Hum… about 1 year ago, lunch…..birthday….oh, yah…we two had lunch together and she sent me something to eat,….um…chocolate if I remember (I couldn’t live without chocolate even one day then). And…we UNINTENTIONALLY did not keep in touch with each other, ‘cause I went to the States and she’s ready for giving birth to her baby girl,…etc., etc….. Well, glad to get connected with her again. She’s my classmate. She’s one of the persons I admired/admire. She’s only 4 years older than me. BUT SHE’S GOT A DAUGHTER ALREADY! When will I have a SON? My SUN on my lower back, a tattoo, is already 4 years old though……
Well, I’m in the North now, should pay her a visit in the South some time.

Jun 11, 2005


from Keelung(Jilong) City Government


A video footage in which a dog catcher from Kee-lung city government hanged a dog to death has been widely spread over the Internet on the weekend, and thousands of e-mails have been sent to the mailbox of Kee-lung's mayor to blame the cruelty and inhumanity of the government.

The whole story happened last Friday (May 20), when several dog catchers from the Kee-lung City Government went to deal with 5 dogs because they were complained of having contaminated the environment of a community. However, the way they dealt with those miserable creatures showed the very darkness of mankind.

Instead of putting the dog gently in the back of the truck, they threw a poor puppy onto their truck, so the miserable life screamed when thrown high into the sky and then fell down into the cage. Worst of all, when they went on to deal with another dog, they locked the dog by the neck with a chain, and when they managed to pull the dog onto the truck, the dog struggled back and forth and therefore hanged in the air; however, the catcher still went on pulling the chain until eventually the dog was hanged to death alive.

The whole process was captured by a cameraman of a television station, and when the news was broadcast throughout the island, so were the blames and rages from the society. According to Antony Ni, webmaster of the website of Animal Rescue Team, a non-profit organization in charge of stray dog rescue missions for over ten years, thousands of messages have been posted on the Internet discussion forums over the island and countless e-mails have been sent or forwarded around the nation and even overseas to blame the cruel execution happened in such a so-called developed country.

“They owe an apology to the dead dog,” said Antony Ni, “so we call for every citizen to write an e-mail to tell the story to the mayor, and we strongly ask that the personnel responsible for the case be strictly punished.” According to Joseph Nee, who heads Animal Rescue Team, the raging fire is spreading throughout the animal protection groups over the island, and they will also forward the video footage to international animal-care organizations around the world.

Animal Rescue Team has now put this video clip on their website, but they warned that any viewer be psychologically prepared before watching the footage.

Water in Dreams - Venting Sadness

Gotta write this down before I forget it……

Before I met New York N. (a psychic) January this year, I had never dreamed of water, sea, or flood. She told me water in dreams is a good thing, meaning venting the sadness. I dreamed of sea once in New Jersey. Then, I flied to L.A. and dreamed of sea again. I flied back to Taiwan in February. In one dream, I was suddenly lying/ dipped in a dark place with water to my neck. I thought it will soon cover my head, though it didn’t move at all. So I tried to escape. But suddenly two hands (only two hands, nothing else) pressed on my shoulders. The two hands of course said nothing, but they pressed on my shoulders hard…like…asking me to stay for a little bit.

I dreamed of the above dreams when I still kept in touch with New York N. I haven’t kept contact with her for 3 months or so. The only thing I did related to her these days is I made a birthday card myself for her yesterday morning at around 1 o’clock. and asked my sister to mail it for me yesterday noon.

This morning around 2:20, I dreamed about flood (not water, not sea, but flood). It seemed that I was in a tall building, the flood suddenly rushed in. The other two persons and I tried to escape from the flood, so we went upstairs to the 5th floor. One of the persons kept running upwards. The other person stopped in front of an elevator. I thought the person wants to take the elevator, so I stopped and stood behind the person. When the door of the elevator opened, the person disappeared. Three people were in the elevator. They called me something/some name, and I said no. I tried to escape from them. But they tried to stop me. Then, I woke up from the dream. I recalled the dream at once I woke up and AUTOMATICALLY (I didn’t know why I did it) silently recount the details in the dream in ENGLISH (not in my mother tongue, Chinese) to myself. It’s kinda like….in order to tell somebody else who doesn’t speak/understand Chinese, I AUTOMATICALLY recount it silently in English. Well, recount what happened in the dream to New York N.? I don’t know, maybe yes, maybe no. Whatever.

And I remembered before the flood scene, I was somewhere outdoors. So flood in a tall building was Scene 2. Scene 1 was……I don’t remember much about it……but outdoors…somewhere, cars, my family members…my father in one car alone…the other members of my family in the other car…I was in none of the cars…I was walking alone…

In reality, yes, yesterday afternoon, I was in a tall building in Taizhong my emotion was sad (I don’t want to write too much about it). Whether this dream was New York N.’s work to me or not (I haven’t contacted her. I only made a birthday card yesterday), or maybe I’ve got the ability to vent my sadness out in a dream, what happened happened, and this dream matches the reality (to some extent), and it’s like a mirror, it’s like another way to represent my feelings, my situations…..etc., another way to help me to vent my emotions out and analyze myself/my situations. Whatever the reason is, this kind of dream/water dream occurred again. And it’s not sea, not swimming pool (not a gentle one), but flood (rushing, coming, upwards).

The birthday card may arrive a little bit late. Happy birthday (June 16) to New York N.

Jun 9, 2005

Birthday Gathering Invitation from Kansas S.

[Added on the following night:
Ah...now I know why she's not going to celebrate it on the 20th. She has to work early in the morning on the 21st. But I gave my two cents worth to her...
"no. this is the route: work --> home (get dressed up) --> pub, bar or...whatever...-->home (take a short break) -->work(zZzZzZz)." ^____^]

Kansas S. e-mailed me her birthday gathering invatation and said:

"Dear Yu-Hua... Can you come??? Be there in spirit at least..."

And this is my reply to her:

"I'm so moved! Of course I'll be there...in spirit! Please say something, some words to me at your birthday gathering. (Either silently to yourself or loudly to the other attenders is fine. It's up to you.) Say something then. I'll hear that. I'll hear that with my heart. I'll say something to you (silently to myself), too. But, two questions: why your b-day celebration is not on or before your b-day, June 20? Why is it one day before mine, June 26?


Aw! This invitation made my night!

Jun 8, 2005


My nose uncomfortness has re-occurred recently. My left naris (nasal hole), to be exactly. It’s always the left naris. It seems that it’ll never be cured. I’ve been struggling with the sniffle/congestion of my left naris these days, especially the very moment when I woke up. I guess I have to re-use the nasal spray. I went to see the doctor for my nose for the very first time in my life about 2 months ago because I was waken up by the nasal sniffle/congestion in the middle of nights. I couldn’t breath. And that interrupted the sleep. That even got me irritated!

Besides the nose problem, sometimes I feel I’m a living dead person. It’s like…there’s an invisible line or something there, and I’m beside the line. At once I cross the line, I’ll be dead. Sometimes, I dream about what I’m afraid of or what I was afraid of, dream about the past. Even sometimes when I’m conscious and awake, things happened in the past come across my mind. Am I going to die or what?